Choosing an Empowered Life
Updated: Nov 16, 2018
I wanted to share my story with you-
My story of how I ended up where I am right now.
In the past 3 years,
You’ve seen me go from silent to totally visible.
From hiding to Empowered.
From broke and slaving away for someone else’s mission, to having my own business.
And I want to share with you how I got here.
3 years ago today-
I was miserable working in a restaurant that was extremely out of alignment for me.
People were angry,
I had never worked with so many people who hated their job-
And the ironic part was-
We were “selling” love and gratitude
The company specifically hired servers who exuded an air of Love, Gratitude, Health, Happiness, and new age spirituality,
and put us in t-shirts and blue jeans and made money off of using us as their image.
Because they were selling the image- so hard core-
And it wasn’t in line with the way they treated their employees
It was a confusing place to work-
The image and vocabulary being one thing-
Reality being another.
It was a slave job none the less.
The energy out- was not equal to the $ that we pulled in.
Not by a long shot.
I had about 15 minutes of script delivery-
Before I could even take the customers order.
It was draining.
I am a musician-
The entire time that I worked there-
I didn’t play music.
I didn’t write- or record or perform.
This was the same for most of the people I worked with.
Actors, singers, musicians, writers, teachers,
Everyone’s creativity dried up-
Into bitterness and frustration.
One should not have to work 6 days a week to pay their bills and still be broke.
It was not that I had high bills-
It was not that I made little money there-
It was- that I was wasting my energy-
In a place that sucked it dry.
And somehow or another I was always broke.
My intuition was speaking to me.
Telling me to get out of there.
The injustice around me-
How people were being treated-
How angry everyone was-
People around me talked and talked of getting another job.
But no one did-
I starting receiving injuries-
(And I say receiving because I believe it was happening because of the decision I continued to make out of fear -to stay working there)
Stress repetitive injuries-
From opening the door to the patio over and over and over and over-
From standing in my knee joints- my hips,
throwing out my shoulders-my back.
That’s not what my body was meant for.
But still I stayed.
We all did.
It’s so much easier to complain-
Than to make a change and
listen to intuition,
To leap into the unknown.
I was surrounded by so much anger
I finally decided to quit.
I had no idea of where I was going to get the money-
But I had been broke before-
And knew that being broke and being free-
Was gonna be healthier than feeling trapped and angry.
I knew that what I was supposed to be doing something with my gifts-
And it was NOT serving someone else’s pocket book
Or growing someone else’s business I did not support
And if someone was going to be making money off of my image-
Of the values that I represented-
It should at least be me!
If I focused on using my gifts, my natural talents, plus all that I’d learned all my years here on earth,
it seems that I would be in the natural flow of things.
It doesn’t make sense that I shouldn’t be able to support myself-
by using my gifts from Spirit.
The very next day- after I quit-
I wrote the first song I had written in years.
That was all the confirmation I needed.
I had started doing readings again-
And I thought- ok. This is a start.
Reading cards was tapping into my intuition-
as well as tapping into my coaching and counseling skills.
So I changed my life.
I moved into a new apartment-
I drove down different streets,
And not down any of the old ones.
I broke my habits.